i got tumblr . 

im sorry blogspot for my ultimate betrayal - i just felt too emo and tumblr is widely publicised enough for me to be sufficiently mocked . reading back on a lot of what i have written is funny, because its honestly how i felt at the time . i just think you can only pretend you don't feel one way when you do , only for so long before you turn mad .

i've been bitter, i've been angry , i've cried , i've been happy, and now i'm here , the present is good enough and i'm actually okay . 

(and i've also got a notebook for writing my emo ramblings in, so none of you can snort at me whinging about "loving" a boy who doesn't love me back)

1.06

i know you're not what i deserve, but you're everything i want .

20.35

i wish my balance was sufficient for me to walk in heels 

02.11

i don't need to justify myself to you .

17.29

the fighter in me doesn't want me to stop hoping, the realist in me knows you're a lost cause .

this can sound as whiney as i want, because its my fucking blog...and all i'm going to say is that i'm sick of not having someone , someone who actually cares about what i have to say or think or feel , i have the best friends in the world who i can't fault, but its like not like i can shag them aswell is it ? (ugh, i don't like the word shag...)

i'm getting better though, i know what i want and i know i'm worth more than what certain

people have to offer .

15.25

oh disposable girl, disposable girl, how you wear those blue eyes and curves so well . 

i feel like im waiting for something, but im not quite sure what , but whatever it is feels so close . 

closer than you and i , anyway . 

23.36

and sleep is the only rest i get from this tattered mind . 

oh, when will your hand find yourself in mine ?