22.02

sleeping, is now becoming more of an unobtainable concept , one that i need to take whenever I can as opposed to when I want . i'm so, so , so tired . 

I'm tired when I'm awake and tired when I'm sleeping .  Analysing people and their actions is not only tedious but apparantly physically draining . Nothing is simple . Simplicity is seemingly too complex sometimes , and instead of being honest , people think its okay to patch over the cracks with more cracks . I'm so confused by people and their hidden agenda's , I really wish some people were as translucent as other people speculate , because things are never , ever that simple .  All I want to know where I stand, instead of just sitting around wondering whether the fact that I fell onto my face and shouting at the top of my lungs has now jeopardized anything that could be "potential" . this + questioning whether or not the obvious flaws in my personality or aesthetics need to be improved .

Everyone's always trying to prove to someone else that there is more there that meets the surface but really, at the moment , all I want is the surface instead of trying to figure people out .

Maybe thats why everyone is constantly changing + ironically change is the only thing that remains constant . head fuck ?